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Durian Flavored Ice Cream

So darn overdue with this...sorry dear Pallavi.

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
A. Ummm...I'll skip the crappy Tamil movies...the last real movie I saw in a theater is Cloverfield...passable...

2. What book are you reading?
A. Now flipping through...Stephen Baxter's 'Exultant', Gregory Benford's 'Cosm', Rob Charles Wilson's 'Mysterium' and John Darnton's 'Neanderthal'. Yeppp I'm a serial reader!??? I just love having lots of books near the bed.

3. Favorite board game?
A. Oh!...(breaks down...crying non stop....) All those memories with my cousins...We used to play boardgames like nuts 20 years ago... :( Its Monopoly and Scrabble. I love the mystery card in Monopoly...used to read all of it during the game and wishing the dice would lead me to it.

4. Favorite magazine/s?
A. Ok totally blank on this...Internet killed Magazines long ago...But I still maintain subscriptions to New Scientist. Used to follow Graphis religiously...then the …

Polar Bear

Anyone know where I can buy a Polar Bear?
Somebody please send me a friggin Polar Bear.
I want one as a pet.
Then I'll walk it around the neighborhood
and let it eat all the cats.
And noisy kids.

The Stars Are Still Blinking

what morals you have
to enclose us in this world
where the walls are glass
and the air is poisonous
in which layers of sapience
and other sentience
battle for space
~ under the eternity sky
where stars flicker
wretched souls
bear the deluge of evidence
of creation gone wrong
and when all of it settles
such like the dust
moments after the first rain
you watch us die
over and over again


[#] I can tolerate most things, but not the feeling of being helpless, and not being there to help. Another journey halts, more to come.

I've Seen, Aware

and I've seen
I've seen
this big world
how it turns and turns
and swirls
snatching hearts
blinding eyes
in the summers
come the rouges
faking emotions
they danced
and for days they danced
from lesser beginnings
they pranced
on the faithfuls

across the seas
giant waves
ravaged lands
we waited
and we waited for nothing
as the clouds disappear
rays of light appear
captured in evening glasses
of the young at heart
as they walk the parks
stealing a few looks
at the defiant girls
the most beautiful they are
illusions grandeur
for the hearts sees
what the eyes don’t
what beauty
we see what beauty
from this life feisty

leaves of lost trees
in those gardens
so often our mind frees
from the clutches
of unfair dreams
as they shatter
under the pressure
of the world
twirl and swirl
and waves and clouds
no different to your color
as we wear the same skin
and spill the same blood
we are not aware
are we
we are not aware


[#] I think I'm back to my old weird self. Tell me if this really read as bad as it was to me...I have an excuse…

Finally! Finally?

First she plays the racists politics, then gender politics and now suggesting that assassination is something 'that might do her good'? That's how I see it. The way we read it, RFK was assassinated because he had a real chance of winning, which means Hillary is suggesting that the danger to Obama's is as real as it gets? Or maybe I'm just ignorant in this whole American politics business.

Whatever she says, the world has seen better women leaders and will see better ones, with or without Hillary winning the nominations, or the presidency.

Showdown in Moscow fun to watch so far
still betting for Chelsea to pick this up
anywhere it goes
this is great for English football
the 11th Champions cup coming home
brought home
8 English Players
14 Foreign Players
2 Foreign Managers
of 2 Clubs with
2 Foreign Owners
from the cold grip
of a
Moscow night
Manure U won it!
they must be the luckiest team in the world this year
at least Chelsea can blame the rain
and finally fire Grant now
and maybe, just maybe
Ferguson can retire
RIP Sir Alex
Retire In Peace
oh well
another 3 months footie break

Why On Earth...

oh well
if you can beat them
join them
and watch your dreams
scatter away
and watch your days blindfolded
as it marches into the rain of doubt
because others are dictating your life
when you learn the language
of saying No
then you might have found a savior
inside you
hidden this long
to eternity not spoken
but if you have learned to accept
then you must follow the herd
into certain trouble and pain
occasionally you might ask
what is the problem
of just doing something
it might turn out to be good
but then you fail to realize
its only you who is left
to pick up the pieces
when all comes crumbling down
dreams built
on stilts
you work day and night
to hearts content
you are happy of who you are
you are happy of who you have become
then comes the evil
in many forms
to distract you
leaving you with the question
of reality
if it's real or an illusion
but don't leave
with uncertainty
they might say
we are lost
the moment we walk out
but they fail to see
we did not seek out
it's them who found us
and so
all that is well
ends …

Earthquake! (5.9, Northern Sumatra)

[update - final] It's classified as 'moderate', no casualties reported from the region so far. Good night and be safe folks.

[update] 19-MAY-2008 14:26:45 1.65 99.18 5.911.6km depth NORTHERN SUMATERA, INDONESIA

[original] Felt another quake. This one lasted about 30 seconds, but not as strong as the previous episodes. Probably centered in Indonesia - Sumatra since previously we felt quakes only from that region (from Kajang, KL) . Waiting for Iris now.

Love is Life

we shall sleep
not this day,
we shall die
not this moment,
we shall live

[#] ...and you can just rearrange it and repeat it whichever way you want because there is just so much life and love in this existence :-)

Beyond Eternity

you know something? the silence, its not enough. I wish for more, I wish the time when you are not here. go away somewhere, take a million year slumber or an interstellar vacation if you term it such.

you can't separate reality with you nuances ghost, you have to live every painful second to see the stars born, and go nova. you are stuck with your human misgivings, your ideas of humanity in search of what? what are you looking for again? and why you cant live with me?

you know sirius, you are drowning in your own nonsense, you can ask your God to go fish for all I care. when they say it is a lost cause, that's when we move, we work to finish it. I assume you know why we are mortals, do you?

And I have to assume that you know why you live only to be 100, and not a billion, the stars are the progenitors ghost, you don't deserve a life, they do.

But we are creating stars now! We can make a new world, a new universe for all it matters, we are Gods!

and you, out of all the ones out…

Life in a Jar: Irena Sendlerowa

Irena Sendler. How we don't see heroes among us these days...only to remember them when they're gone...
"The term 'hero' irritates me greatly. The opposite is true. I continue to have pangs of conscience that I did so little," Sendler said in one of her last interviews. Sendler, born Irena Krzyzanowska, said she lived according to her physician father's teachings, arguing that "people can be only divided into good or bad; their race, religion, nationality don't matter."
[Full Story]

She was arrested in October 1943 and taken to Gestapo headquarters where she was beaten. Her legs and feet were broken and she was then driven away to be executed. But a rucksack of dollars paid by Zegota secured her release. She was knocked unconscious and left by the roadside. She still has to use crutches today as a result of her injuries.
[Full Story - Guardian, 2007]

[+] Irena Sendler(1910-2008)
[+] Irena
[+] News Collection
[+] Some quotes
[-] She lost th…

In Ze Garden of Gud n Evilz

Ok...breaking point.
Sollutions didnt work...
i think i did the worst this time.
Shud hav quit when it was possible
shud have worked harder Earlier!
But I have to thank all those who hav helped
the light at the end of the synapses
its real
its called thoughts and conscience
and it tells you to get things done
oh and I wanna say this:
there was a time when we shout on the roads,
people listened and changed things,
these days, if you dress like a whore to fight for their rights,
people think you're jst a whore,
nothing more and nothing less.
its a methaphor
in a meth addicted world
love is not real
pain is
and hunger :)
and the gud part...
I dont know
maybe i'll jst sleep this off
long overdue

of hope / amber lights

like the droplets
on the window sills
one by one tiny dreams
they fall
and you told stories
of days and i listened
and when it comes to mine
it was silence
id rather hear you say
how much you love the world
id rather see you pray
to the god who loves you

like the cold droplets
now running in tiny streams
on the balcony flower patch
they are together formless now
you and me enveloped
in the maroon mist
searching for that instance
of amber lights flickering
which is hope in a failing world
where nothing comes
as wished

[#] Sometimes the heart yearns for too much among the derelict world where trust and believe have failed. Sometimes only hope remains, in all its divinity in our minds, and in all its fallacies around us.


April turned out to be great,
May is turning out to be amazing.
But stress is eating in,
too much work, too many excuses...
sometimes I feel things might get out of hand
and I might just loose the clients...

No Drama Obama

"What I don't spend a lot of time doing is obsessing about what-ifs and should've beens," he said on Friday. "I don't spend a lot of time anguishing and looking backwards."
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[#] Well its about time someone told Hillary he ain't a desperado :-)

Brian Cox

Excellent TED talk by Brian Cox on the LHC, Standard Model, Particle Physics and Cosmology.

[+] LHC
[+] Brian Cox; Rockstar physicist.
[#] Ghost reflections: When the heart wants to belong to the universe, society forbids it. But the choice is mine, for better or for worst, I will be back to that Universe. That is a promise to the Self.

Chelsea vs Liverpool

Some afterthoughts... Sir Alex wanted Liverpool to be in the Finals, and we all know why. For a team struggling on the pitch, playing most of the time with a single striker and well don't have a 'real' 11 man team on the field of course Liverpool would have been a great team to meet in Moscow. But though luck ManU, you will get somebody worth of kicking your collective asses come this 22 May. I just hope Chelsea doesn't hand down the trophy to ManU cheaply. Just for the record, I hate ManU like all red blooded Liverpool fans not because of the team but because of the fans. Just about the most sadistic buggers you can find anywhere out there.

Not taking away any credit from Chelsea, I find myself laughing at the blabbering of Avram Grant. He said he did it his way? Well probably he doest read the news much, just like Rafa Benitez won the 2005 UCL with Gerard Houllier's team, Avram Grant goes to the final this year with Jose Mourinho's team. The most expensive ens…